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Wed, 14 Sep 2005 19:48:11 GMT

Yep so today was Crucible auditions :/ i wasn't too confident in my audition today.. but HOPEFULLY I'll be abel to read the scene work tomorrow!! YA'll did fabulous! :) besides that lifes pretty good right now.. got my homecoming dress and ticket and i'm SOOO excited!! boring entry but thats about it... comment?

Wake me up when September Ends...

Sat, 10 Sep 2005 15:24:47 GMT

WOW i haven't updated in a long time... but heres the update of my life lately...

* sigh* I haven't really been myself lately.. i've been a more.. depressed me I guess.... this sucks. I dont understand how like one second he could be all yea I want to date you and the next say he just wants to be friends... what bullshit is that.... but w.e i'll get over it eventually and SOON i hope... i guess i didnt' understand how much i really liked him until he said that :( and how much i guess i really did want a boyfriend... but i like the way brad put it as.... he said that we were just in blind love... i like that phrase... blind love and i think that describes it perfectly...

Schools been alright lately, i've been talking to some new people i wouldn't have thought i ever would and its really sweet. Crucible auditions are next week and i'm SOOOOO incredibly hyped! i just hope i get out of this funk that i'm in by then :/ ugh i hate feeling like this. So Homecoming is coming up soon and idk if i've still taking Ryan after he said he just wanted to go as friends.. i guess i'll think about it... but on that note my wonderful girlfriends and I are going dress shopping today! :) so hopefully that'll cheer me up a little bit at least. :/

ughh.. i feel like rolling up and crawling into a hole and idk why :/

Mon, 22 Aug 2005 15:31:33 GMT

wow... i haven't updated in a long time... cause well i dont really like to anymore :/ this summer is almost over.. registration is tomorrow and i'm really bummed about it, i've had a lot of good and a lot of bad things happen this summer lol but over all it had some pretty great times... i'm really excited and also angry about having to go back to school ... i can't wait until WCSPA starts up again :) as i'm sure everyone else is thinking too. I'm very much ready to be a sophmore this year instead of a freshmeat freshman lol
and i guess thats about it, i dont really feel like explaining how lifes been lately and why its been like that but all you need to know is that its doing good lol ~ tori ~ yes i know blunt entry but ehh lol.

Thu, 11 Aug 2005 04:12:46 GMT

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MILO!! BFFEAEAEAEAEAEAEA.... 16 !!! :)

Thu, 04 Aug 2005 21:28:58 GMT

OMG!!! so yesterday I went to the backstreet boys concert with my mother, jennifer and dawn! and yes i no .. o backstreet boys they're gay blah blah.. but it was soo fricken awsome! first... we sat in row A! like 5 rows from the stage... but luckily dawn was there to force us to sneak into the very first row where we eneded up sitting by Nick Carter's cousins and possssibly Kevins' wife and daughter!!! I SHOOK EVERY BACKSTREET BOYS' HAND! omg it was soo amazing i was like fricken 2 feet from Nick Carter, he sang to me and looked right at me and so did the others omg it was so great! but kinda scary cause this bouncer guy was like.. do you guys sit here and i had to lie lol but hey it worked! ahh i can't wait to get the pictures!

the opening back Click Five was awsome and soooooo hott lol jen is like in love with them and they kept trying to throw their picks to us but they flew in opposite directions.. darn lol but they pointed to us and sang to us .. o man it was great!!! so basically it was a great time had by all and was definetly one of the top 5 nights of my summer vacation!

showing love to all of my new friends :)

Fri, 29 Jul 2005 21:53:19 GMT

wow these past few weeks have been awsome... operetta camp is soo much fun and the people there are so great! its only been two weeks and we've already got soo many insiders hahahaha... no guys i am not half black lol

New friends
- Jen
-Katilin
-Melonie
-Portia
-DeVon
-Nate
-Helen
-Derek
-Sara.... etc.

too bad theres only one more week :(
tonight i'm going to Warren Idol to watch Jen sing :)
tomorrow the Walter's are coming over
and Sunday is my BFFFEAEAEAEAEAEAES BIRTHDAY WOOOOOO HOOOOO HAPPY 14TH MEGAN!! I LOVE YOU SOOO EFFIN MUCH GIRL!!!!
thats all for now :) comment

Sat, 23 Jul 2005 05:30:33 GMT

today was.. interesting lol but a lot of fun

i went to operetta camp which is a blast :) and we went to the ballet that was performing at the opera house. they were amazing dancers and it was so pretty lol and also funny cause my friend jen and me were "interpreting" the dances hahaha we couldn't stop laughing! lol but the ballet itself was great

Afterwards i came home and went to erics cuase we were celebrating his birthday :) everyone was there and we all hung out.. i was in a really really crabby mood though and idk why :/ but after i got over it we played hide and go seek but with the entire neighborhood as grounds to play.. it was fun lol UNTIL the cops showed up :) lol becuase john, being the crazy person he is decided it would be funny to run across the street in all black and a ski mask while a car was coming.. well the lady called the cops and a cop car showed up hahaha but luckily he drove away after we explained the story lmfao boy was i scared lol... then we just hung out some more :) great fun Happy birthday Eric i couldn't have asked for a better "brother" lol

Wed, 20 Jul 2005 21:53:02 GMT

stolen from mel

HEY GUYS !. IF YOU WERE INTERESTED IN JOINING TAP CLASS AS EXTRA PRACTICE THIS SUMMER, BUT DIDN'T GET AROUND TO IT, OR DIDN'T WANT TO GO SO FAR FOR THE OTHER TAP CLASS, YOU CAN STILL GO TO TINA MARIE'S (THEY JUST STARTED SUMMER CLASSES BECAUSE OF COMPETITION). IF YOU SIGN UP TODAY, YOU CAN START TOMMORROW. IT'S ON TUESDAY'S AND THURSDAY'S FROM 9:10-9:50 PM. IT'S $56.00 FOR 3 && A HALF WEEKS; TWICE A WEEK. ALSO, IF WE GET UP TO 6 PEOPLE, WE CAN HAVE OUR OWN CLASS FOR TAPPIES AND HAVE A DIFFERENT TIMES MAYBE THREE TIMES A WEEK. SO FAR, WE HAVE POSSIBLY 4 PEOPLE. SO IF ATLEAST TWO MORE OF YOU DECIDE YOU WOULD LIKE TO JOIN, YOU CAN AND WE'LL HAVE OUR OWN CLASS ! IF YOU NEED DIRECTIONS TO TINA MARIE'S INCASE YOU'VE NEVER SEEN/ATTENDED IT, IM ME ON AIM AND I'LL LET YOU KNOW:

COMMENT BELOW IF YOU'RE INTERESTED/GOING TO SIGN UP?
OKAY, THANKS ; ]

Tue, 19 Jul 2005 20:55:08 GMT

so wow.. i didn't no my last entry was going to cause such a commotion.. thanks for all of the supportive comments guys :)

so last friday i got my permit YESSS it was great im so excited!
then we went up north.. blah it was boring.. rained the whole time
and yesterday i sarted operetta camp, so far its going great and its a lot of fun
tonight is my first tap class and hopefully i'll be seeing mel and rose and jen and milo there :)i can't wait
payce out :p

and ice is cold, never take friendship personal

Wed, 13 Jul 2005 03:46:53 GMT

yea so lately lifes been sucky and good all at the same time... i've hung out with some awsomely sweet tapp people * dawn,taylor,zack,jen,milo* but then at the same time... the drama with my other friends has just exploded!! blah its like i can't escape it!! nor am i going to take the time to explain the ball mess of confussion! :) lol comment if you'd like

Fri, 08 Jul 2005 04:30:20 GMT

life is pretty lovely right now :)
took my drivers test today to get my permit.. pretty positive i passed
hang out with friends the rest of the time... i love my friends :)
thats all.. bye

Happy 4th of July!

Tue, 05 Jul 2005 04:38:42 GMT

Wow today was SOO awsome! i <3 my friends! :)

so it started out with megan me and andrew<3 walking up to taco bell which is always a lot of fun just the three of us.. then mara called and wanted us to come over so we went to her house and went swimming which was also a lot of fun becuase mara was her cheerful dorkish self which we all agree is a much better mara than when shes... okay well anyways

then after mara's megan and me went to her house to drop somethign off when all of a sudden the college guys that were at her house for her brothers birthday party decide it would be fun to pick us both up and throw us in the pool with our clothes on lmfao! it was hilarious! lol megan didn't think it was all that funny though lol but i thought it was fun ;)

then i went back to my house and andrew came over and ate dinner with us and then the loefflers and milo came over and we decided to walk up to angus where we got caught in the rain... we all got totally soaked but it was such a blast running around and dancing in the rain :) there were even some fireworks going on all around us after it got darker which was even cooler. After we got just too wet and too cold we decided to go back to my house were we watched more fireworks around our neighborhood <3 it was a lot of fun.... then everyone left and megan me and andrew stayed outside and talked for like an hour about random things.. and like i said i love it when its just us three :)

so fun was had by all today i would say and it was a great independence day!

HAPPY 4TH!

maybe i'll just sing about it...<3

Tue, 28 Jun 2005 21:43:43 GMT

I wish you hadn't kissed me
When you walked me to the door
I wish you hadn't held my hand
And made me want you more
I wish you hadn't whispered
All those sweet things in my ear
I wish you hadn't stroked my hair
Or hugged and held me near
I wish you hadn't smiled
When I opened up my eyes
I wish your touch
Had not erased all your little lies
I wish there were no little things
Reminding me of you
I wish memories would not
Make me feel the way I do
I wish I didn't know
That if you called I'd run right over
I wish I could be strong and smart
And give you th ecold shoulder
I wish you would have treated me
Like just another girl
Then the nights I spent with you
Would feel like what they were
I wish I hadn't fallen hard
I knew you weren't for real
But I just can't help the way
That being with you made me feel
I wish I wouldn't wake up sad
And know I've dreamt of you
I wish I could get through a day
and never think of you
I wish I could forget
How you took away my fears
I wish I only thought of
When you didn't wipe my tears
I wish that you had been the guy
I hoped that you would be
I wish I could get over you
Like you got over me
I wish that I could see you
For the person that you are
But the heart won't ever listen
Or grant wishes on a star
And I wish that all these wishes
Were full of honesty
But truth be told
I wish that you would just come back to me ...

not that i ever even had you

idk why i'm posting this...:/ its not like wishing does any good

to you

Mon, 27 Jun 2005 14:53:48 GMT

Because you kill me
you kno you do you kill me well
you like it too
and i can tell
you never stop until
my final breath is gone

- ohio is for lovers

sometimes i wish i could just disappear from it all... ever feel like that?

Sun, 26 Jun 2005 04:59:18 GMT

wow .. today = busy..

so first i wake up at 9 to cassandra and megan who spent the night before. i had to go to an ortho appointment at 9:30.. so i'm going upstairs and i'm greeted by an art van furtinture guy and i'm like umm mom whats going on and she goes.. SURPRISE we bought new couches hm i guess i forgot to tell you .. how do you forget somethign like that lol.. okay so well i went to the ortho and it was justsuppoesd to be a normal check thing when he has a cancellation and decides to do a bunch of work so i'm like o great and he asked if i wanted gas.. and at first i'm like no because you said it wont hurt right lol and hes like right.. but then i got to thinking and decided... hell i've had a real hard past few days and some drugs will do me good, gas me up doc lol man that gas felt soooo good!

then i came home and got ready and went to milos party.. it was quite fun hehehe his spanish friend enrique asked me out.. hes so adorable <3 and i told him i'd have to see him more but it was a possiblilty!

i got picked up at 6 to go to my firends dance recital where i got the plessure of starring at the hottest dude who could REALLY move mmmm lol then after the recital we went out to big boys and i again went into sad mode and so i ordered mountain dew after mountain dew lol i had three...

it was a very fun,busy,moody day ... i wonder what tomorrow will bring...IDK if i'm looking forward to that... or not :/

whats that terrible sound, bang bang, my baby shot me down

Sun, 26 Jun 2005 04:56:56 GMT

so yea... my day yesterday started out going to wendys' with john and megan.. then i called *him* and told him that we needed to settle this... so he meet me at angus after we argued on the phone a bit and for about two hours we "talked"... actually about an hour and a half of that consisted of no words at all... but i'm happy/sad to say that we setteled our differences (if you could call them differences) ... i think :/ * if you dont know what i'm talking about... dont ask *

after that..yesterday was a lot of fun and a lot of self-lookingness i guess you could say i honestly dont know what to do or how i'm gonna react to the weeks ahead. i hope my heart is ready for anything and i hope it can take the pain i'm sure it'll go through...

cass and megan spent the night.. we were such pimps with 7 guys with us lol.. had a squirt gun fight at erics, hung out the rest of the night lougeing around and having a dude chase john at angus for catching him and this girl having sex and then finding seman eww lol hmm.. fun!

Thu, 23 Jun 2005 15:22:11 GMT

omg yesterday was sooo fricken hilarious!

okay yesterday cassandra and me were at bradleys, with brian andrew john and a bunch of other people... well cassandra me andy and brian were all in our bathing suits but cass and me had no pants, so we asked the guys if we could have theirs becuase they had swim shorts on. BUt after we got the pants we decided that it just didn't look right, so we asked for their shirts and then their hats. well the guys felt a little naked so they put on OUR shirts lmfao!! it was soo hilarious! i took a bunch of pics on my phone and i fi knew how to transfer them in here i would hahaha.. andrew had on cassandras' lacy tank top and brian had on my tight t-shirt haha it was great. me and cass were SWIMMING in their pants! hahaha.. anyways so we decided that we didn't want to give them their clothes back and so we hop on our bikes and pedal away with them chasing after us in our girl clothes.. wow .. it was awsome! lol ugh i love days like those.. the night.. yea that just about sucked... but he'll get his...

sugar, we're going down swinging

Sun, 19 Jun 2005 02:49:26 GMT

ummm.... last day of school was this week.. that was sweet.. went to milos.. played poker.. hung out with jenny on friday and went to see maras dance recital with andrew which was totally great because i loooove seeing mara danced.. andrew liked it too lol... went shopping today.. fathers day's tomorrow... been hanging out with my boys a lot lately... maybe a little too much.. but i've got to love them so its all good... lifes been pretty normal lately.. decided to NOT do warren civic.... this summers just going grand lol payce out

Tue, 14 Jun 2005 21:20:53 GMT

* i copied this from taylors entry word for word lol sry tay i was inspired :p * i recommend that all of you read both of these. some of you may have already read "For The Nice Girls," but i doubt many of you have seen "Ode to the Nice Guys". PLEASE read both. they are very long, i admit, but its definitely worth the read. ode to the nice guys got me thinking...because its true, what it says about us girls. most of us anyways. you'll have to read it. but it got me thinking...really thinking. and im glad that i read it. guys, i want you to read the one for girls too. just read them both i promise its worth it

This is a tribute to the nice girls. The nice girls made of sugar and spice, who always get overlooked, and who sit and endure endless ranting about the psycho-bitch stalker sluts men are wasting their time with, all the while embodying an angelic, classy exterior that is underrated. This is dedicated to the girls who pick up the phone at 2 a.m. to talk to their belligerently drunk guy friends and listen to them for hours about nonsense because they don’t feel like going to sleep. This is for the girls who still say thank you to the guy who hurries to hold the door open for the leggy blonde in front of you, then squeezes in front of you and barely saves the door from slamming in your face. This is in honor of the girls who reiterate how lucky any girl would be to have a certain guy, and then tell him 50 different ways to impress the girl of his dreams who is too stupid and stuck up to notice him in the first place. This is in honor of the girls who pump up a man’s ego because she knows how delicate it is, and once it gets bruised, she tells him how sexy/smart/funny he is so that his confidence (and head) is as inflated as it was before some dumb bitch ripped his heart out and put it in a blender. This is for the girls with the big hearts, who aren’t afraid to be silly, who lay it on the line, and who can go with the flow. This is for the girls who truly believe there is more to guys then sex and sports, but still put up with the sexist jokes and watch ESPN Sports Center without complaint.

This is for all the girls who have been told, “you’re the type of girl guys want to marry”, and who spend their Friday nights alone (or with other nice girls) because they don’t put out on the first date. This is for the girls who possess all of the qualities of a kick-ass girlfriend, but never get the time of day.This is for all of the girls who are unappreciated, but still unselfishly give their time and effort, go to great lengths to please others, and continue to genuinely care about other people’s feelings (even if they are assholes). This is for the ladies who are called prude because they would rather spoon than lick balls. For all the girls who are cast to the side, sit out the slow dances, and confidently go stag to social events, this is for you.

This is for the time you had to work at 8 a.m. the next morning, but still picked his drunken ass up and drove him around so his other drunk friends wouldn’t have to leave the party and so he wouldn’t have to stumble into his house puking at 3 a.m. This is for the time he ditched hanging out with you to play video games with his friends and for the time he blew you off to stare at some anorexic blonde with jugs bigger than your head in a bathing suit. This is for the time you went to hang out with him and his friends and even though he was too cool to admit he had feelings for you and practically ignored you the whole time, you still pretended not to notice as all comments were directed to your chest instead of your face. This is for the Scarface marathon you sat through after he bitched for the first five minutes of a romantic comedy you’d been dying to see, but you let him choose what to watch anyway, because you’re nice like that.

Nice girls don’t get the attention they deserve. We like sports, we like to get rough and dirty, we don’t ask you 100 times if you think we’re fat, and we don’t complain while you munch down four cheeseburgers as we enjoy our salad and water. Even more surprising, nice girls don’t get asked out as much as they should. We don’t expect anything fancy, I mean you can save that $40 you spent taking some whore out to dinner just so you could secure some booty time for desert and use it to rent a video and buy us some flowers. I wish I could explain this, but the only conclusion I can come up with is guys are image-whores who just want a hot piece of ass and to uphold a badass reputation. Many of them claim they want a girl they can take home to Mom, but when faced with such a lucky find they say absurd, illogical things such as “Oh, she’s out of my league”, “The timing is off”, or “She’s not my type”. I’m sorry, but these conceited jerks I just have no tolerance for. There is no connection between what they say (“I don’t want to wake-up next to a stranger”) and what they do (“Who the fuck is this naked woman in my bed?”). Furthermore, they comment on the lack of women who possess the full-package that are still available as they continue to sleep around with any hoe-bag with a short skirt, blonde streaks, wide-open legs, and even wider-opened mouths. But one thing I will say is this does not last forever. Eventually the boys get tired of fucking the high-school/college dropout with STDs and illegitimate children, and that’s when they will be begging to tap the tight nice girls’ asses. The hard part is sorting out the loser guys from the ones who didn’t have to sleep with 25 girls to realize what they actually want in a woman and then making sure they aren’t involved with the very psycho-bitches that give us nice girls a bad rep.

So until these men realize what they are missing, until they actually grow big enough balls to go for the nice girls, until they are ready to get more from a relationship than blow jobs and booty calls, and until they have the intelligence to give us exactly what we need, I propose a toast to all the nice ladies. You know who you are, and *I know* you are sick of hearing you have to be patient and keeping waiting until what’s meant to happen will happen. But the truth is, the world needs your long comforting talks, your insightful suggestions, your pleasantly optimistic perspective, and your tendency to let the men act like heroes and take the credit while you sit in the background as the ditzy damsel who has so much more than what meets the eye. For all the crazy, immature, ill-witted things you fathom, for all the situations where your infallible performance is unacknowledged, and for the endless nights you spend trying to improve someone else’s life instead of your own, my gratitude and appreciation go out to you. You do have infinite, priceless, goddess qualities and our sovereignty and absolution is coming. <?xml:namespace prefix = o ns = "urn:schemas-microsoft-com:office:office" />

and now it's the boys' turn...

Ode to the Nice Guys

This is a tribute to the nice guys. The nice guys that finish last, that never become more than friends, that endure hours of whining and bitching about what assholes guys are, while disproving the very point. This is dedicated to those guys who always provide a shoulder to lean on but restrain themselves to tentative hugs, those guys who hold open doors and give reassuring pats on the back and sit patiently outside the changing room at department stores. This is in honor of the guys that obligingly reiterate how cute/beautiful/smart/funny/sexy their female friends are at the appropriate moment, because they know most girls need that litany of support. This is in honor of the guys with open minds, with laid-back attitudes, with honest concern. This is in honor of the guys who respect a girl’s every facet, from her privacy to her theology to her clothing style. This is for the guys who escort their drunk, bewildered female friends back from parties and never take advantage once they’re at her door, for the guys who accompany girls to bars as buffers against the rest of the creepy male population, for the guys who know a girl is fishing for compliments but give them out anyway, for the guys who always play by the rules in a game where the rules favor cheaters, for the guys who are accredited as boyfriend material but somehow don’t end up being boyfriends, for all the nice guys who are overlooked, underestimated, and unappreciated, for all the nice guys who are manipulated, misled, and unjustly abandoned, this is for you.

This is for that time she left 40 urgent messages on your cell phone, and when you called her back, she spent three hours painstakingly dissecting two sentences her boyfriend said to her over dinner. And even though you thought her boyfriend was a chump and a jerk, you assured her that it was all ok and she shouldn’t worry about it. This is for that time she interrupted the best killing spree you’d ever orchestrated in GTA3 to rant about a rumor that romantically linked her and the guy she thinks is the most repulsive person in the world. And even though you thought it was immature and you had nothing against the guy, you paused the game for two hours and helped her concoct a counter-rumor to spread around the floor. This is also for that time she didn’t have a date, so after numerous vows that there was nothing “serious” between the two of you, she dragged you to a party where you knew nobody, the beer was awful, and she flirted shamelessly with you, justifying each fit of reckless teasing by announcing to everyone: “oh, but we’re just friends!” And even though you were invited purely as a symbolic warm body for her ego, you went anyways. Because you’re nice like that.

The nice guys don’t often get credit where credit is due.
Not all guys despise chick flicks and are afraid to be romantic, not all guys just want sex and nothing else. And perhaps more disturbing, the nice guys don’t seem to get asked out as often as they should. And I wish I could logically explain this trend, but I can’t. From what I have observed on campus and what I have learned from talking to friends at other schools and in the workplace, the only conclusion I can form is that many girls are just illogical, manipulative bitches who just want a boyfriend to fit in with everyone else around them. Many of them claim they just want to date a nice guy, but when presented with such a specimen, they say irrational, confusing things such as “oh, he’s too nice to date” or “he would be a good boyfriend but he’s not for me” or “he already puts up with so much from me, I couldn’t possibly ask him out!” or the most frustrating of all: “no, it would ruin our friendship.” Yet, they continue to lament the lack of datable men in the world, and they expect their too-nice-to-date male friends to sympathize and apologize for the men that are jerks. Sorry, guys, girls like that are beyond my ability to fathom. I can’t figure out why the connection breaks down between what they say (“I want a nice guy!”) and what they do (“I’m going to sleep with this complete ass now!”). Furthermore, they talk about the lack of men who have everything they want, but continue to mess around with any guy wanting head or other things. But one thing I can do, is say that the nice-guy-finishes-last phenomenon doesn’t last forever. Eventually the girls will get sick of the boys who constantly break their heart into a thousand pieces, who are walking STDs because the sleep around too much, and will come around, begging to get with a guy that actually cares. There are definitely many girls who grow out of that train of thought and realize they should be dating the nice guys, not taking them for granted. The hard part is finding those girls, and even trickier, finding the ones that are single. The ones who know what they want, and won’t be afraid when the nice guy is actually nice because they’re so used to being treated like crap.

So, until those girls are found, and realize what they’re missing out on, until they’re over the hype of just having a boyfriend to fit in, when they finally want more out of a relationship than social status, and until they have the common sense to let the nice guys love them, I propose a toast to all the nice guys. I know you’re completely sick and tired of hearing you have to be patient and keep waiting until that girl finally realizes how great you are. But the truth of the matter is, the world needs your patience in the department store, your holding open of doors, your party escorting services, your propensity to be a sucker for a pretty smile. For all the crazy, inane, absurd things you tolerate, for all the situations where you are the faceless, nameless hero, and for the endless nights you spend trying to console someone else instead of helping yourself, my accolades, my acknowledgement, and my gratitude go out to you. You do have credibility in this society, and your well deserved vindication is coming.

Fri, 10 Jun 2005 01:03:52 GMT

yea... so i haven't updated in a while and thats because so much and so little has been going on... plus i really dont like updating lol i prefere to read about other peoples day than waste my time telling no one about my day lol so if you know me.. you basically know how my days have been going... and in one word they've been great!

Sat, 04 Jun 2005 17:58:41 GMT

wow.. so a lot has been going on this week.. so i guess i'll start from the beginning..

Monday- normal
Tuesday- Dance audition at Warren civic... i got to see taylor audition too :D

Wednesday- WCSPA BANQUET! Omg it was soo incredibly fun! everyone looked so great all dressed up :D i won for best technical peformance for light board on cinderella!! i was soo excited! congratulations to all of my other friends who won awards! The banquet itself was a lot of fun i sat with milo, jenny, and carolyn and our parents with milos awsome sister leanne and we ate dinner and my mom said milo and me go back and forth like an old married couple! lol i dont see it though so lol i cant wait to get the pictures back from it!

THursday was my call back audition for warren civic.. i stayed until about 9:30 becuase they kept teling me to stay...i thought i did good but unfortunetly i didn't get a part :/ o well the director picks favorites which so isnt' fair but... i suppose the people who got the roles were best suited for them and i wish them the best of luck

Friday was sooo much fun! lol school was funny and the rest of the day rocked! when i got home from school i hung out with megan and she then went to the triples while i went to erics where john and brad were hanging out... then mara and andy showed up and we all played four squre... then megan showed up AGAIN lol and we all went to my house and basically all fell asleep watching t.v. on my couch ... hehe i was quite comfortable ;) *those of us who were there knows why* and they all left at 12 and i was sooo happy becuase... when he left.. brad gave me a hug! :D !!! i really missed our hugs!:(

Saturday- today i had to wake up at 8 to go to the orthodontist and get my bleeching kit and retainer... joy.. and then i came home and slept for two hours cause i was soo exhausted from last night! and when i woke up i cut the grass lol okay so my day hasnt been that eventful yet but its not over yet! :D

so yes my week has been quite eventful and a LOT of fun!.. dont know what i'm doing today.. probably hanging out with the friday gang :D * comment*

Mon, 30 May 2005 15:50:41 GMT

This weekend has been boring... up until last night

Last night was a lot of fun.. after coming back from up north i went to megans and then we went to mara where brad, eric, eddy, and peter were hanging out... we all decided to then go swimming at megans lol that was great! FIRST SWIM OF THE SEASON BABY! then peter brad and of corse megan came back to my house and we sat in my basement and talked until midnight... i love nights like those.. i can't wait until summer to do relive nights like those everday!

I dont know where the countdown for summer is... but its getting close!

Cinderella dressed in yella went upstairs....hehehe

Mon, 23 May 2005 19:09:35 GMT

OKAY so this past week has been so awsome!! i love tech week and working light board with mr. hart was super fun! Friday's show went well but we had some shall we say technical difficulties with the strobe light but fixed them before saturday matinee which went flawless!! omg friday night was crazy! at coney mr. hart bought me, jessica b, alicia, taylor, and zack our dinners or w.e we ate! it was soo awsome! hes such a G! and then on saturday between shows everyone went into the dance stuiod and we had like a dance rave and mr hart went in the middle of our circle thing adn busted out this fly movee! lol as he would say becuase he thinks he's 15 again lol but ya gotta love him.. adn sorry for the ppl i've told this story a million times lol i just think its super cool! so yea today we took down everything with lights from the show and saturday night all of the upper levelers were crying cause it was their last show and everything.. i'm gonna miss level fourers! :( so yea tech week was great, the shows were awsome, and a fun time was had by all!!

tonight i have my audition for warren civic where i'll kick off yet another show!woot woot! lol wish me luck! payce!

HOLY COW!

Tue, 10 May 2005 20:31:06 GMT

ugh.. i had a bunch of pictures of meghan and me at her house to show you all.. but they wouldn't upload!!... o well heres another boring entry with no pictures :( lol

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So the rest of my weekend... was shall we say... VERY EVENTFUL! some of you know why ;) too bad i dont think anything more is going to happen... not that i want it to ..i thought it would be awkward seeing him the next day but hes ignoring the fact of what happened on saturday but hey so am i and im cool with that... i'll just make sure it doens't happen again so i dont get hurt again... yes i'm pissed and confussed because the very next day he was doing the guy thing and flirting with other girls right in front of me and its like wtf ya no... .and i dont even no the reason he did what he did but i dont think its the reason i want it to be.... o well it was just a one time thing i suppose * mostly because i refuse to let him do that to me again* ....no biggy... :/ * and yes i realize for those of you who have no clue what i'm talking about this paragraph sound REALLY wrong lol but its not what ur thinking u dirty minded people

but anyways!.. right now i'm supposed to be doing a social studies essay or a language arts essay... ugh sooo many projects i can't keep them striaght so i've decided to take a little break because i just finished some really really hard geometry! ugh ! I HATE SCHOOL.... i have like... 3 due in one class alone! but anyways... NEXT WEEK IS CINDERELLA TECH WEEK! and i couldn't be happier.. i've been waiting for this week for soo long and its finally here!...which means we're starting to set up for it and i should soon begin learning light board which i cant' wait!..... umm... what else I WORE A SKIRT TODAY IN SCHOOL! * GASP * yes i no shocking lol ... heres a quote that i like that my friend just gave me that relates to the above topic....

I hate the way you talk to me / And the way you cut your hair. / I hate the way you drive my car. / I hate it when you stare. / I hate your big dumb combat boots / And the way you read my mind. / I hate you so much it makes me sick -- / It even makes me rhyme. / I hate the way you're always right. / I hate it when you lie. / I hate it when you make me laugh -- / Even worse when you make me cry. / I hate it that you're not around / And the fact that you didn't call. / But mostly I hate the way / I don't hate you -- / Not even close, not even a little bit, not any at all. -10 things i hate about you

sigh... * COMMENT *

Sat, 07 May 2005 16:37:21 GMT

yea nothing exciting has been going on in my life because megan has been sick all week :( get well soon!!

lol but i have had fun though... yesterday i went over to jen's house to work on our WW2 project for social studies.. it was really interesting learing about her great grandfather in the war.. her grandma is soooo freakin sweet lol shes awsome... OMG HER DOG IS LIKE A HORSE! i never knew great danes could be a tall as my chest omg! it was huge it scared me! then afterwards i went shopping for a mothers day gift ... but i could'nt find anythign good enough for my mom... theres not a gift out there perfect enough for someone so perfect :( lol but i'm workin on it... then brad and mara came over and andrew called me and he was like can we come over so thinking he meant him and eric whos house he was at... i see wakling down the street... eric andy, john and peter!! but we had fun non-the-less.. peters actualy gotten really funny it was great.. we watched fat albert and then hung out outside a while and said our goodbyes... today i'm going to meghan walter's house to celebreat little jenna's birthday! so that should be fun... yea boring i no but comment anyways lol